Self-promotion

I think “putting it out there” is the only way I can get feedback from others and discover the impact / value of what I do – otherwise I am left to judge myself by my own standards – which might or might not be useful to me. I speak as someone very reluctant to do anything in public that wasn’t perfect, and over the years (my Carolan’s Dream video in 2006 being my first public experiment at putting it out there) I’ve gradually overcome my reticence to do this – which also means my having to at least listen to all the voices that come back – whether critical (easy to accept but hard to swallow) or praising (hard to accept or believe important).

Note: this was originally an email to a student of mine who was talking about performance / imperfection. but it applies to me and in another level of self-promotion, I’ve chaged it to be “myself”

Facebook comment on my concert last night:

Me and mum have just been utterly blown away by the harpists tonight at St Mary in Charnwood. Thank you, Nanpantan Festival and thank you Mark Harmer and John Dalton for playing truly beautiful music. Words just aren’t enough.

Seeing from multiple angles

Recently I visited Derby Children’s Hospital for some practical music-making as part of the Opus Music in Healthcare course.

Within the Children’s areas there is plenty of visually very witty design to make the environment as fun and stress-free as a hospital can be. For example, the big lifts are decorated floor to ceiling. Go into the lift, and you’re surrounded by sea and sand, and on the floor, pebbles and a pair of flip-flops. It’s just a flat photograph on the floor, but quite unnerving to walk on because it looks so realistic. Returning later in the other lift, you’re surrounded by a football crowd in a stadium, and the floor is a grass pitch with white lines and a football. A wonderful and tangible manifestation of the care and thought they put into making this a welcoming place for children.

Even so, it was a bit unnerving being in a group bringing music into this environment. Between us we had a collection of various wind instruments and my harp, which suddenly seemed huge in a world of children. How would we be received?

I’d already discovered (in the training session) that it’s a powerful thing to offer music to one other person. It’s very different from playing in a recital or pub session because you don’t get – or expect – a response. And just to bring in an instrument to a healthcare setting is a significant event, even though it’s also a humanising and potentially beneficial one. During our musical visits to the wards I was particularly struck by the importance of looking around you and noticing what’s going on – both before, during and after playing. To get everyone used to the sound it’s nice to play a few notes; this gives you both a clue as to what the instrument can do, and makes it easy for someone to decide whether they want to listen or not. Sometimes the music was met with what appeared to be indifference, but often it prompted wonderful, engaging exchanges between the musician and the patients – one girl laughing in delight as she filled in the words of a song that the musician kept “forgetting”. The boy next to her was nodding his head vigorously in time to the beat, and he played along with a little percussion instrument.

We played in many areas, including Children’s A&E (in this case, the waiting area). A&E is different from other areas because people tend not to have planned to be there and can be worried about many things – not just medical related, but the consequences of suddenly having to be somewhere at short notice. Music can have a potentially beneficial effect for both children and parents / carers if carefully and sensitively offered.

Playing in this situation demands that your antennae and your senses are on full alert, and one such incident also showed me the importance of sharing our observations. A little boy put his hands over his ears at one point during our playing, and afterwards one of my fellow musicians mentioned this as “not wanting to hear the music”. I saw this too, but also noticed that he’d put his hands over his ears when a doctor came into reception to call out a name – so it’s equally possible that he didn’t want the music to be interrupted by this loud voice cutting across the room. A third colleague was by the entrance and as the doctor walked away after calling out the name, the doctor apparently said “I’ll never get him to come away now” – in other words, it was this little boy who was being called, and he wanted to stay. While we can’t assume it was a positive reaction to the music rather than a wish not to go for treatment, it seemed to me he was enjoying listening, at least as a distraction. On leaving, he apparently pointed at one of the instruments, possibly my harp, and said, “I want one of those”.

Back to my question about how the music is received: really, it’s a different way of playing. Normally you are acutely conscious of how you are being received, but in a healthcare setting you have to have no expectations of getting anything back, and you have to be comfortable with that; you offer the music and are willing to work with what emerges, moment-to-moment. Even if you get a reaction, such as the boy in A&E, often the “truth” is really impossible to know. We can’t always ask what the impact of the music is, and the patients can’t always give us an answer in any case, at least not in words. But having collectively shared our views, we got to piece together a possible version of how the music was being received, and whether or not that little boy takes up an instrument, at the very least, we provided a taste of live music and a nice diversion from what must have been a stressful day for him and his parents.

Cheltenham Festival of Performing Arts

Fantastically pleased to have won a cup!

This was in the Adult class for people who make their living from / largely from music, and I spent quite a while considering various options for pieces, because my music is often either my own arrangement, or pieces I’ve written, or pieces by others that I’ve learned by ear, and for any of these cases, I can’t provide the required sheet music. However, after much discussion with various harpists, I decided to play pieces which were fully notated. The reason for this is that the point of entering was to get feedback on my performance, and while playing from “written” music is atypical of what I do, it made it easier for the adjudicator to give me useful comments. Thus I played a piano piece by Einaudi, one of my Carolan arrangements (which I’d notated for sale), and a Grandjany piece.

I did a few fluffs, and I think it’s in the nature of these things that you yourself as a player notice them, and everyone else doesn’t. At least, in my case, I just carried on and didn’t let it throw me. And I have a wonderful cup and certificate, and these great words from the adjudicator (signature removed at the bottom). I’m fantastically proud to have done this!

adjudication MH may 2013

Folk art vs Formal art

This extract was extremely influential in my thinking about how folk music differs from formal music

I only today found this piece of paper again, and googled a phrase from it, thus was able to find that it is part of a paper by Teshome H. Gabriel. Actually, he was looking at Third World Cinema, and how it differs from our experience / understanding of cinema in the western world. That being said, it’s also a brilliant comparison of the differences between a “collectively held” understanding and something which is set down in print. We see these differences in different types of music, and we also see these differences in the organisations we work in – the “what’s really going on” vs “what’s presented to us”.

So, have a look at it, and think about how it applies to a situation you are interested in. For me as a musician, it was a revelation because many of the points exactly describe the differences between traditional, “folk” music, and formal, “art” music, and I found it helpful just to see another perspective which articulated what I’d intuitively felt.

folk vs literate art form comparison

 

Music in Healthcare

I’m delighted to have been accepted on the Opus Music in Healthcare 5-day course.

The first two days have already been great – looking at different ways to vary the music we play, and getting us as a group sensitive to each other and to the change of pace required in a hospital setting – not just entering the hospital, but moment-to-moment as we work with different people there. The next three days include visits to various wards. For me it’s also a musical challenge as I need to develop at least a comfortable level of ability to sing as well as play – our experience is that variety is important. Anyway, hugely looking foward to the next installment.

You can read more about opus here.